What is this blogging all about ?

There goes another busy day at the office. While I anticipate waiting for my phone to ring for an interview, I can't do much but wait, search and apply for jobs. I gotta earn my doe to feed the flocks at home..

So, I started this blog thing yesterday. I don't know what makes me want to start it, i guess i think it will help me sort out my cluttered mind. In my younger days, we just write out our daily affairs in the good old journal or diary. Now with this blog thing up and everybody donig in, it is quite irresistable. But then again, I cannot keep from thinking that i cannot share my private thoughts here because the whole world has access to it. And I believe i am not alone. I would be terrified if i sneered a word online about my boss and she happens to read this blog... what in the worl would happen.

So, with no guidance on blogging and no one to share, I am full of curiosity as to how to make this blog thing work. And the funny thing is, i don;t even own a computer ? I wonder how long can i keep this open. What about my old blogs, will it just dissapear 1 fine day ? How long can i keep up with this ? I guess the answer is... who cares for the long term ?

So, here i am back at square one, wondering what made me started this blog. How do i continue and what should i write about ? Should I promote it ? Should I let my friends read it ? I really am clueless. Well, at least 1 good thing will come out of this, a place which i could express myself and declutter my thoughts. I guess i have a lot pent up in my mind, my own opinions about life, work, world, economy (as thought i understand it) and no one to tell. So maybe blogging will help me . So all you bloggers out there, if you can share how can i move on from here, please do let me know, if at all my blog reaches anyone... hahahaha...

Another day passed, another day older, not knowing what lies ahead of me .. funny, only in my 30's do i feel insecure about myself, well that's another topic then.

Mid Life

When chatting with friends about mid life crisis, we often talk about being forgetful, being neither here nor there, too much to do, too little time and for the women visible signs of aging starts to appear. Growing more facial hairs, getting wrinkles, getting more round in the middle is just some of the things we discovered we are facing. Well at least, I discovered.

Sometimes it is good to still have a mother around to tell you or at least pre-warn you what you are about to face in this stage of life. At this age, sometimes we wonder is it normal to still wonder about things in life or is there something wrong with me ? Having too much uncertainty is certainly not something good. Well, thank god there is Oprah Winfrey and buddies with the good old teh tarik for advises.

Being forgetful certainly will not do much good for the career and it is such a struggle to learn up how to cope with short term memory. Lack of energy is also another obstacle we have to face. Well, one thing for sure, it is not something that we women of the 30's face alone.

A friend reminded me to think happy thoughts just about 2 days ago. So, with so much to deal with, a family, kids and career to juggle .. it's easy for one to forget how to be happy and how to keep your family happy. Ironically, in our pursuit for happiness, how did we come to this stage of so much complications in life ? Is life getting complicated or more sophisticated ?

Whatever happen to simple happy life...